Tuesday, October 27, 2015
He Knows Me
He knows me. I believe that. I believe that I lived before I was born. I lived a life full of knowledge, and faith. A life wherein I walked with the Spirit of power, confidence, and joy. A life where I dwelt in the presence of my Father in Heaven, and I had conversations with my elder brother, and chosen Savior.
In the scriptures, we read of how God knew Joseph (Smith) more than 3,000 years before he was born, and that Joseph would "bring forth the Book of Mormon to the confounding of false doctrine." B.J. Rowe also goes on to say, in his talk the Omniscience of God, that "God knew the minute details of the life of the prophet Joseph Smith."
There is nothing written of me in the scriptures. I have no ancient prophetic source that reveals to the world what my purpose is on this earth. And yet, I still believe that He knows me. There have been moments when I have felt such a pressure in the very depths of my heart, as though it were being encompassed all around, and I had no idea why or what it meant. I recall as a young girl, when I lost a dear friend, and could not fathom how a loving God did not have a better plan in place other than purgatory or limbo. How my young heart, broke that sad, sad day. And in the most dire of moments, when my heart and my mind felt such sorrow and hopelessness, I was overcome by the most enveloping sensation of light that touched the top of my head, and radiated through my body to the very tips of my toes.
That moment was an answer to a prayer. A desperate prayer filled with countless, "please God, please, please, please, please God." Those were the only words that could be spoken. I didn't know what to ask or why I was asking, but He had heard the pleas of my heart, and answered me.
He knows me. I believe that. I believe that I lived before I was born. I want, now to live a life full of knowledge and faith. Faith in God. Faith that I will again walk with the Spirit of power, confidence, and joy. A life where I will again dwell in the presence of my Father in Heaven, and have conversations with my elder brother, and chose Savior.
In Jesus' name I pray. Amen.