Monday, November 24, 2008

"We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?"

Brilliance is not a word I would use to describe myself. But the question posed by Marianne Williamson in her book A Return to Love, struck a reflective cord. She followed up the question with another question: "Actually, who are you not to be?" It got me thinking. Brilliant. You can't see the slight smirk on my face that indicates doubt. Gorgeous. You also can't see the raised eyebrow indicative of doubt and skepticism. Talented. My thoughts are jumbled like a jigsaw puzzle. Fabulous. It can't be me.
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
I'll be honest, feeling inadequate is one of my fears. But, having others recognize just how inadequate I am, that is my biggest fear. Maybe that's why I never go for the big dreams. But, what if feeling inadequate is not my deepest fear? What if, my deepest fear is being "powerful beyond measure?" Do you know what that reminds me of? "Where much is given, much is required." Man, I never really got that verse in terms of my daily life. Spiritually, I got what the reference meant, but I guess I blew it in the daily application. We are powerful beyond measure. If that statement is true, do you know what that means? I mean, do you really know what that means? If I am or you are "powerful beyond measure" than there is nothing that is out of reach. All things are possible. The magnitude of that phrase is sensical, but at the same time incomprehensible. It's like staring out into the Milky Way and not knowing where to place your focus. If I close my eyes, I can just barely make out the truth of that statement, but the full shape, body, substance is still blurry. I have a feeling, a sensation of what that statement means but it's going to take time to manifest itself to me.
It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.
What would it take to claim that power to shatter the darkness and illuminate my world? What would it take to shake the fear, doubt and skepticism and stand bold and be courageous? What would it take to overcome what frightens me the most and accept being brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous?
We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God.
I know that I am a child of God. Granted, I am not the best or most behaved child of God, but I am His child. I've never thought of it as Sunday school rhetoric or scriptural platitudes. So, in understanding that I am a child of God, it should follow that He would expect all of his children to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous. There would be no question of the adjectives He would use to describe His sons and daughters. Wow. That's profound...and humbling.
Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
Gosh, that statement sounds like something Professor Chase would have said. Professor Chase would have followed that up with "now that you know it, do something about it."
We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us, it's in everyone.
My sister has three children: Travis, Trysten and Trayse. They are our future. As the adults in their world, we try to teach them how to best live a good life so that when they are adults they will be good people. We try to teach them to walk a better path than we have. We teach them to learn to be leaders so that they will know whom they are following. We teach them to love and respect each other, so others will show the same to them and their siblings. We teach them to love God so that they will always know they are not alone in this world. I need to remember to do the same.
And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.
My younger brother Joseph was known for his famous one-liners. His best friend Troy, who spoke at his funeral, reminded us of a few of them: "Come, let me give you a free hug." "Be good to yourself. Be good to somebody else." "For you the world. For now, a ride to work." Joseph's life reminds me that being brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous isn't as far-fetched as I thought.
(Thanks to Ipo for posting the poem on her blog. It was the catalyst that got me thinking.)
fyi...Siana, these are my photos and not stock photos. I expect you to be impressed with them ;)

5 comments:

Ipo said...

Beautifully put, Rita. Your analytical skills still reign supreme kimosabe...But seriously, taking apart this quote and asking questions of yourself is what, I believe, helps one to take inventory of where they stand in their own spiritual progression and knowledge. It seems silly to think that we could be afraid of our own potential and therefore we shrink from it. The thought of being afraid of light instead of darkness also seems unreal. But it is the light within us, that eternal glow of divinity (being children of a Supreme Being)that intimidates us in our present state, being the natural man. Letting our light shine is not an easy thing in a world such as we live in today. Thanks for sharing your thoughts. And the question posed in your blog title is exactly what we are as spiritual beings, no matter what our physical appearance. And thanks for dropping by some love on my blog! Back at ya!

EOTU said...

I told my friend Marianne to stop writing about me and then she goes and writes a whole poem in my honor LOLOL ;) Sus kidding... And yes I do love the photos! :D When I first heard this poem I thought to myself "why would I be afraid of being powerful beyond measure?" I actually think I would enjoy that. I do believe my greatest fear is inadequacy then again I can somewhat understand fears of being brilliant... I don't know... I'm so confused LOLOL These are thoughts I often ponder to myself with no real answer. I feel the potential and promise within myself for a better future than at times wonder whether I'm being realistic with my thoughts so its a constant battle that has yet to be won. Can you tell... I can keep going but I am going to stop :) Thanks for making me think about this yet again :) but now out loud online :D <3 Siana

Calidore said...

Siana...I'll be sure to pass the comment on to Marianne. We're having lunch to talk more about you. LOL!

Gillian said...

Well said. I think we all need to hear this from time to time. I know I do. :)

EOTU said...

LOLOL Yes tell Mary (thats what she likes me to call her LOL) we'll talk again some time soon! <3 Siana